9 years...

it's been exactly 9 years since he's gone from my world.. don't know why i still kept counting the days.. and i can't help myself from missing him.. please god, why i still kept thinking of him when i already have someone else in my life right now??!!! why i kept thinking of someone who already gone from this world??? why the memories still haunt me to this day??? i wish his mom won't call me today as she did every year... i don't want to deal with this memories and longing anymore.. i really don't want to!!!!!